you and i, were going to be okay, you know that?
i love you my kitty, i dont want to disappear, i keep on having to remind myself that soon enough ill see you again, and nothing will seperate us anymore. i want to stay with you forever. i want to remember your smell, your laugh, your voice…everything. its so hard to think that one day this will all be gone..it seems like we just got here.
after i met you…looking at myself became me looking at myself pretending i was you looking at me hopefully falling in love. and now my clothes are the clothes ive worn around you or clothes youve never seen me in. and all the place i took you are now the places weve been.
you are my every thought. and if not, you are always there subconciously and each thought manages to stem from you or branch out to you, its crazy, but i love it.
you are my favourite thing in the world.
and your imperfections are not imperfection, they are perfection and they are beautiful.
and i care about you more than ive cared about anyone else.
and when im with you i dont need anything or anyone else.
and whenever something exciting happens, i want you to be the first person i tell.
and i want you to be the first person i see in the morning.
and the last person i see at night.
and i want to take you everywhere with me, id keep you in my pocket if i could.
and when something is funny, sometimes i look over to see if you are laughing too.
but you are not there.
so i dont know why we arent speaking,
and why this is all so complicated.
youd think that after all of this searching, after finiding you this struggle would be over.
and i might have to live my entire life knowing you are out there and not a part of me.
and that thought is like a gun to my head
but i cant control whats happening
and i dont know how to fix it.
i do need you.
